Hey guys , i'm going to start my post by saying FUCK MY LIFE -.-" ...
10days detention to go , gonna' seat down there and let my butt rott -.- LOL !! ...
I hate myself , I'm disappointed in myself , I regretted all the things i've done in my secondary school life ...
I regretted choosing this school ... :( I'm guilty , I'm confused , I'm lost . I have no plans on what to do next , I do not know what to do next , I do not regconise myself , I have no idea who am i now , have no idea what i'm doing ... Everything feels like i'm in a dream and i do not know how to wake up ... I do not know which path and where i should go in life anymore , i feel useless , i feel hopeless ... i have no sense of directions ...
Whenever i close my eyes , i felt fear around me , i see cracks when i close my eyes , black and white is the colours to describe how i feel right now ... ZZZ ! Seriously what am i thinking ?! I don't have any fucking ideas what i'm thinking right now , don't have any fucking idea about what i'm doing , what i'm saying and my actions ... I feel like i'm not ME anymore ... All i can say is that my life SUCKS and i'm a LOSER !!!!
Self confidence are bullshits ! No such things as care , concern and love . I'm all on my own , lonely fucking little bimbo -.- The future is still so far away from me ... I do not know what will happwn one day ... I just can't get myself up on my feet again ... Look down on me bitches ... Slap me , kick me , spite at me . I can't fight back ! I had already given up ...........
No more , no more ...
Lastly ,
" BITCHES & SON OF ALL BITCHES OUT
THERE ! YOU SUCK TO THE
CORE OK!
GOD'S WRONG , I SHOULDN'T BE BORN IN
THE FIRST PLACE ! DEMONS ROCKS ! I'M
GONNA CURSE YOU ONE DAY AND MAKE
ALL OF YOU DIE DIE DIE !!! WAIT AND SEE
!!! "
